The words on this page do not fully express how I have been feeling.
The final four weeks have been extremely challenging – more so than the previous 8 combined. I have reached my lowest points physically and emotionally and it has affected my relationship with my fiancé but most importantly my relationship with myself.
The physical effects of removing exercise have included constant lower back pain, sciatic like pain in my left hamstring and sore neck and shoulders.
Sleep has also been affected – sleep quality is crucial to overall health and wellness and I know that this change in sleep habit has had a big negative influence on my hormones.
My mental changes have ranged from apathy, low motivation and scatterdness to full-blown grumpiness and moodiness (much to this dismay of my fiancé).
Fitness to me is as integral to life as breathing and eating. I believe in the 6 ‘doctors’ of sunshine, air, water, exercise, nutrition and rest – these form the foundation of great health. When I am operating from a place of great health I can do great things.
My lowest point so far was probably last week when I was pre-menstrual and the PMS symptoms were extremely intense; I felt myself slipping into a depression like state and it wasn’t fun.
This challenge has reinforced the notion that I can do anything I put my mind to.
When placed in difficult circumstances I still look for the positive and I have a fairly resilient mindset about it. This is the first time in my life that I have totally forgone exercise, and it’s been astounding to experience how it has negatively affected my overall level of motivation and mood. I got through this – I survived but I didn’t exactly thrive.