Week 2 was one I would rather forget and the first moment I really noticed my thoughts related to not working out.
While exercise is important to me as it is part of my job and I like to feel good about my physical capability, it is more than that. My own space with no distractions now no longer exists. I wonder what do people who don’t exercise do to be alone with their thoughts? Maybe non-exercisers don’t have a place to go, maybe that is a bigger problem than missing the physical benefits of movement??
While my attempts to meditate are in the early stages, I still do not believe this is a direct replacement for movement.
There are other factors I am struggling with as well, the human response to being told you can’t do something, which of course means you crave it even more – and my reaction to everyone asking about it, pulling the struggle to the foreground all the time.
I had a bizarre moment the other day when I was dropping my motorbike off for a service and had some time to kill. The nearest café was a small walk away, and low and behold it was up the hill! Making my way to grab a long black (gotta minimise calorie intake right?) an odd thing struck me, this lack of movement seemed to gain momentum, and for the first time in a very long time I genuinely felt lazy.